four my strength
four my strength
My fourfits journey started as a size 14 bride-to-be and on the day of my wedding, I walked down the aisle in a size 8 white dress. I had reached the goal I had set out to do and I felt my best. But now, almost three years later, I’ve put some of that weight back on and had lost the momentum that kept me going pre-wedding day.
In a bid to find myself a new goal, I tried a variety of different workouts. I changed gyms a couple of times, attended a pole school and even joined a CrossFit box. I was looking for something I could apply focus to and see growth. I wanted to not only feel fit again but to feel strong.
I ended up finding love within Aerial Hoop. It has allowed me to work on flexibility and also strength, sometimes even unknowingly!
I’m focusing less on what I look like now but more on how I feel and the progression I achieve within Aerial Hoop.
“four my strength”
four the balance
four the balance
For me, it all started about image, doing it ‘four that strut’. I wanted to look amazing, feel amazing and strut down my wedding aisle as if it were a runway!
I have an incredibly obsessive personality, if I want something, I have to get it so when I set myself a goal, I pour every ounce of energy into that one thing. Beginning my fitness journey, I made it my mission to fit into a wedding dress that was two sizes too small. With the support and motivation from my fourfits ladies, I did it!
Shortly after my wedding, I felt the fittest and healthiest I had ever felt, but once the accomplishment had passed, I began to refocus all my time and attention into my career. From that point on, my health took a backseat.
I’ve recently gone through a period of self-reflection and whilst I am proud of everything I have achieved professionally, I find myself still searching for fulfilment. I’ve come to realize that my strength in determination is often weakened by my inability to keep a balance across the different strands of my life. Aspiring to achieve a goal and not giving up until it's done is a great attribute to have, but it quickly becomes an unhealthy addiction when all other aspects of my life suffer as a consequence.
Thanks to my career, I am making a move from London to Los Angeles (YAY!) and I want to use this exciting opportunity to focus on ME. Finding balance, growth and development in everything I do. A mentor and friend recently reminded me that it is equally as important to feel inspired and fulfilled. I have to challenge the emphasis I place on the ‘end goal’ and instead learn to make day by day improvements to my entire lifestyle. Doing so will naturally set me on a path to become the best version of myself.
Don't get me wrong, I will still strut my stuff ;) but i’m now doing this –
"four the balance”
Throughout my life I’ve always had a complex with weight. As a young child, I developed a somewhat ‘eating disorder’, where I would shy away from food. I would hide my uneaten packed lunches from my parents or run away whenever the table was set. It wasn’t as if I was consciously making the decision to stay skinny, it was just the way I was. Some would even say I was afraid of food - I know, ridiculous right?!
As a young girl, my weight never went above the 6 stones mark; And as I grew into a teenager my appetite grew. Unfortunately my weight remained unchanged. For a long time I remained at 6 stones. I would do everything and anything to put on weight. I started replacing water for full fat milk, snack constantly, have 4 hearty meals a day in hope to gain weight. It never did. In an attempt to uplift my spirits people would comment on my 'amazing' metabolism. But day after day my confidence slowly deflated.
At the age of 23, I started gaining weight. I remember looking down at my weighing scale and seeing it past the 6.5 stones mark, I was beyond happy. Then it creeped to 7 stones and at the current age of 29, I am now a healthy 8 stones.
Weight, has always been an issue in my life and now more than ever I want to focus on not just the aesthetics of my body, but my health too. What's the point of having such a bomb body if my inside's aren't up to scratch?! There is so much emphasis on looking great, but isn't feeling great just as important too?
For the year 2017, yes I do want to be a healthier and fitter individual but I also want to mentally and emotionally be happy with my progress. There is more to fitness than beating your body in the gym. So whilst I'm still on this path of figuring out my new goals, I'm -
"doing this four me"
four the love of food
four the love of food
I hate when people tell me "oh but you don't need to go to the gym, your soo slim already", it's like like a slap to the face after all that I've done in order to shift the weight I've accumulated over the years.
You see, for as long as I can remember I was always considered "the cubby one" or "the curvy one" (a basically polite version of the previous). I was never severely overweight, but always above average enough to have the fact that my baby fat followed me into adult hood, commented on. And sadly, I eventually internalised these remarks into facts and lived my life accordingly, freely eating whatever my heart so desired, whenever it desired it.
Between 2010 & 2011 I weighted the heaviest I've ever been. After the freedom of university life, countless nights of binge drinking (beer is your enemy guys), take outs and a lack of restriction in relation to snacks, I was 10 stone and some. Whilst I know this is NOT the definition of obesity nor would I have been considered a "big girl" in that respect, what it was doing to my health and self esteem was dangerous. I had absolutely no regard for the state of my body. I didn't care if I heading down a spiral of eventual diabetes, breathing problems and blocked arteries. I felt ugly on the inside, so why not allow my outside to match, right?! Plus it felt gooood stuffing my face with all those desserts and fried goodness! However, after graduating in the summer of 2011 and realising the potential to help others that my profession blessed me with the ability to do, I finally listened to Gods truth that I was more. I am a temple of his works and I was never to give anyone the space or permission to tell me otherwise. I decided to adopt a healthier lifestyle and made a conscious decision to change for the bestest. I doned my Nike Air Max's, headed for the park...and never looked back.
Slowly but surely, I managed to loose almost 2 stone through my various runs and sprints of gym visits, but the fight doesn't stop there. My love of food has always and always will be my Achilles heel, as despite my weight loss, my appetite for all those delightfully morish snacks and nibbles remain. And whilst it was all fine and dandy to adopt a more active lifestyle, it was essential that I switch up my eating habits too in order to completely embrace a true transformation. So I swapped my favourite kettle crisps for fresh fruit and Greek yoghurt, and fried chips for some yummy greens - cause let's face it, the struggle to keep up all that hard work was and continues to be REAL!
I rep after rep and push to attain not the ideal body, but to work towards a fitter, non-fluctuating temple, where my love for food doesn't override the love I have for my health.
This is my journey.
“four the love of food”